Nesting, kind of….

August 29, 2010 at 3:02 pm | Posted in Insecurity, nesting, pre-op | 2 Comments

So, I have this urge to clean the whole house.  The goal – to have a clean house by my surgery date.

I am certain that this is partly a way for me to get my life in order, get ready for the transition, etc.  But there is a part of me that can’t wait to have the surgery and then spend like a week thinking only of myself.  For once to not worry much about work or the ones I love – but to think about myself.

I love my family and friends.  I love my husband and our dog.  I love being with people and my deepest fear is that people don’t want to be with me.  That’s a whole other post, for another day.  Anyway, I rarely do things just for me.  I feel like my life consists of what to cook, plan, clean, do for others.  And this – THIS – is the first best excuse to focus on me.

Of course, life still happens everyday, so I need to work ahead to plan to keep things moving and in a good place while I spend this week focusing on me.  Hence the cleaning, nesting binge.

I have spent today giving our main bathroom a thorough cleaning.  Tub, walls, floor, toilet, floor behind the toilet, sink – all clean!  It feels good.  I hope tonight to spend a little time weeding out the cabinet below the sink in there.

The rest of the rooms will follow.  I love the peacefulness of a clean house.  I also hope this peacefulness will lead to a relaxing recovery.  I have goals for that period of time – me-goals, of course.  They include:

walking

reading magazines

purging magazines

walking

deleting personal email

deleting work email (I regularly get the “sorry, your box is too full to send a message” message, and usually at a critical moment when I need to send a message)

walking

sitting with my feet in a pool of water

attempting to give myself a pedicure, and definitely a manicure.

Throw in a bunch of drinking water and liquids, and it’s a regular ol’ party, dontcha think?

Did anyone else nest before their surgery?